The Courage Factory

This week I will be brave. 

I will be my own courage factory - producing tenacity and heart for every situation. 

I will not be afraid. My life is perpetually right-brained - between Royal Stage, my writing jobs and just....my own head....there are a lot of critics. Not everyone is going to like or appreciate the masterpiece God is creating for me, and I don't have to invite them to the gallery viewing. 

This week I will be strong. I will fight the compulsions, voices, panic attacks and depressions - I will not be ashamed to ask for help, and I will trust my friends, husband and GOD to help me through. 

I will not apologize for being broken, because someday every crease and crack that will remain once I'm made whole again will stand as a testimony to the One who put me back together again. 

I won't let darkness win. It's already robbed me of so much in life. I've missed childhood, 64 days of the 12th grade, college experiences, birthday parties, dance opportunities, meaningful friendships, days with my children - it was all stolen away - it's not allowed to have another single moment of my life. 

I will let myself be numb, angry, frightened, sad....but only as it serves to pave the road toward peace and healing. 

I'll be my own courage factory this week - I have to be. Because no one else can get me where I need to be - except me.