Make Things Beautiful

Today was a rough, hideous day that I won't get into. I struggle, and sometimes I struggle hard. Depression & anxiety are complete menaces. I can be up and then down with no warning or reason. It sucks. I love that quote - "Everyone's playing the same game, we're all just on different levels" - and I was on a very difficult one today. 

Despite my wandering mind, my emotional suckiness and stellar array of poor choices, I will go to sleep choosing to look at the beautiful from today. 

Sam got a new toothless smile, courtesy of some laughing gas and a rockstar dentist. 

Charlotte found her bliss at Artbeast. 

We had lunch at the kids' favorite restaurant and napped during a spectacular thunderstorm. 

And as night falls, I remember that despite my struggles, despite my ugly....God is not mad at me. God can still use me. 

He's given me the chance to remember the beautiful, even on days like today when it's very, very difficult and feels like a lie. 

Like the flashes of lightning and thunder that shook our house this afternoon, Gods power is huge.